Damn, it’s been a while.

This seems to occur in a fairly consistent rotation: Blog for a while, stop for a while, try to come up with some transitional post, repeat. The stopping for a while often does not have an obvious cause. This time, however, I’ve experienced some major life changes. Depression, sadness, dedication, motivation, anger, betrayal, numbness, overwhelmed, careening, hopelessness… are all applicable at some point. I changed career directions. I am currently estranged from my family as a result. Monumental life events. I considered starting a Tumblr because it’s easier to deal with than self-hosting. The few times I would think to come back, it all seemed overwhelming. Especially when it was just for a thought that didn’t fit on Twitter. The Tumblr exists. Whether I choose it instead remains to be seen. A dear friend who helped me set all of this up a while ago when the hosting I had fell through, kept it going and took care of all the technical stuff for me. The downside is, I’ve lost that skill. But this friend came through for me again even though he is dealing with many demons of his own, and I have access to my blog again. Time will tell how everything proceeds.

Special thanks to Justin. I love you.

Meet my babycat, Kavi.

Kavi was a rescue kitty. She has been in my life now for 6 years. She is an Egyptian Mau mix – she has spots, even on her skin. She will mew about anything and everything, and has a million different voices. Her favorite thing to do is squeeze onto the couch next to me where there really isn’t room and purr like a freight train.

About a month ago, she started eating less and slowly dropping weight. She was still acting healthy and active until a few days ago. Now she can barely walk straight. She is quiet – only making one pained noise when something unwanted is occurring. She is not eating or drinking on her own. She does not run around to chase anything. She picks a strange spot and curls up there and stays.

I took her to the vet today. Blood tests came back positive for advanced renal failure. This condition is not reversible, but it can be managed if she responds to initial treatment. She is currently receiving this treatment, which includes IV fluids and potassium injections. I will find out the results on Saturday morning.

This treatment is costly. If she does respond, I may still need to provide her with subcutaneous fluids for a period afterward. I am not currently employed as I am beginning nursing school. I am asking for your help. She is still young and could have a full life ahead of her if this works, and I am not ready to give up on her yet.

If you are in a position to help, please click on the link below and donate. Thank you for your time.

Donate to fund Kavi’s kidney failure treatment.

Spelling necessary is not unnecessary.

As a child, I excelled at every subject in school. Scored in the 99th percentile on all standardised tests. And, I always placed into the school spelling bee. Often won. In sixth grade, I failed on a fairly difficult word. I was irritated enough that I didn’t bother to remember what word it was.

A year later, in seventh grade, I was given “unnecessary”. And failed. And in that exact moment remembered that I had failed on “necessary” the year before.

Never forgot how to spell it.

Delayed reaction.

My dad’s had some work issues. Got everything resolved. Since then, I drove to my parent’s place for the first time this afternoon. Came in the house rockin’ out to some Kool and the Gang in honor of my dad’s achievement. My mum looks at me and says, “Kool and the Gang.” I say yes and ask where dad is. She says upstairs. I holler something, he hollers back, I figure oh well, turn it off, and move on. Headed outside to help my mum with some things.

An hour and a half later, I come back in, and my dad comes around the corner and says, “You were playing Celebration when you came in weren’t you.”

I stare at him. “Yes.”

Him: “A light just came on.”