This seems to occur in a fairly consistent rotation: Blog for a while, stop for a while, try to come up with some transitional post, repeat. The stopping for a while often does not have an obvious cause. This time, however, I’ve experienced some major life changes. Depression, sadness, dedication, motivation, anger, betrayal, numbness, overwhelmed, careening, hopelessness… are all applicable at some point. I changed career directions. I am currently estranged from my family as a result. Monumental life events. I considered starting a Tumblr because it’s easier to deal with than self-hosting. The few times I would think to come back, it all seemed overwhelming. Especially when it was just for a thought that didn’t fit on Twitter. The Tumblr exists. Whether I choose it instead remains to be seen. A dear friend who helped me set all of this up a while ago when the hosting I had fell through, kept it going and took care of all the technical stuff for me. The downside is, I’ve lost that skill. But this friend came through for me again even though he is dealing with many demons of his own, and I have access to my blog again. Time will tell how everything proceeds.
Special thanks to Justin. I love you.