Damn, it’s been a while.

This seems to occur in a fairly consistent rotation: Blog for a while, stop for a while, try to come up with some transitional post, repeat. The stopping for a while often does not have an obvious cause. This time, however, I’ve experienced some major life changes. Depression, sadness, dedication, motivation, anger, betrayal, numbness, overwhelmed, careening, hopelessness… are all applicable at some point. I changed career directions. I am currently estranged from my family as a result. Monumental life events. I considered starting a Tumblr because it’s easier to deal with than self-hosting. The few times I would think to come back, it all seemed overwhelming. Especially when it was just for a thought that didn’t fit on Twitter. The Tumblr exists. Whether I choose it instead remains to be seen. A dear friend who helped me set all of this up a while ago when the hosting I had fell through, kept it going and took care of all the technical stuff for me. The downside is, I’ve lost that skill. But this friend came through for me again even though he is dealing with many demons of his own, and I have access to my blog again. Time will tell how everything proceeds.

Special thanks to Justin. I love you.

Let blogs gone be blogs gone..?

And this is one blog that seems to have gone.

Life really provides more than enough bollocks to fill a million existences worth of blogs. I have endless text files with tiny phrases and short sentences referencing some random observation of serious events and some nutter thing that happened as I walked by. My email drafts folder ended up loaded with more confusion than my inbox ever did – it did make for excellent quick note taking in the time before iPhones and millions of synchronising note programs. It usually took having 8 text files open and unsaved and an overloaded draft folder for me to run through a stream of backdated posts filled with insight, wisdom and hilarity. Or bollocks. Or both.

My joining Twitter seems to have put a halt to it. The note with with the contents of whatever fleeting thought or observation that eventually moved here… Twitter has become the tangential stream of consciousness I describe it as, and what my blog once was.

I’ve given consideration to a resolution. I will not only tweet links to my blog posts. I will not blog posts consisting only of tweets. The only answer ends up involving some redundancy. Which, if I have any intention of blogging again, is unavoidable. So, this is therefore the plan.

Anyway, it’s probably much simpler than trying to keep the world under 140 characters.

Incidentally, you’d think Twitter would have taught the world to be more concise. Evidently not. People still don’t shut up.

Follow your film.

I’m going through photos people have taken.

It doesn’t seem to be the case with random scenery photos, just when it’s more deliberate photos taken by the type of person who won’t walk anywhere without a camera in hand – it’s like following them, seeing the world through their eyes.

I’ve heard that from a few people about my shots. It’s just been a while since I’ve thought that about looking through photos belonging to someone else.

It's time.

I’ve decided on a list of goals for the next couple of months.

– Work on learning Spanish and German.
– Work on learning Python and C#.
– Update my resume and get it posted.
– Continue eating healthier.

Continue as in I’ve already started eating healthier. And it’s happened for more than a couple of days in a row, so I might actually be getting somewhere with it.

Four different languages, two completely different contexts. Heh. I found that amusing.

Four is more than enough for a group.

And a group with the same goal is all that is necessary to have a support group.

Four of us decided to try to lose 10 lbs in the next 4 weeks. There isn’t a prize and nothing bad happens if you don’t manage it. The idea is to just do the best you can and see what you can reach.

I’ve already been eating a bit healthier. Just have to try to stick with it. I’m finding that, while it costs more money, having prepackaged healthy stuff sitting around makes it a lot easier. It’s easy to pick up an unhealthy snack when it’s that or construct yourself a healthy meal from many parts. I need to hit the store again to refill the healthy food content of my kitchen. I bought one of each of a few different things to try them. Most worked out great.

Lately my desire for greasy type foods has dropped significantly. Just isn’t as appealing as it used to be. Could be a good sign.

So, here goes.

Completely random.

Cream of Wheat and Earl Grey Green tea, followed by Stride spearmint gum. The burps taste like Froot Loops.

I haven’t had Froot Loops in years.